i LOVED HER

i LOVED HER ... ... ...

a MISTAKE GETS REALISED LATE , ALWAYS ... i HAD DONE MANY MISTAKES IN MY LIFE ... :( ... nOT SINS :) ...

 i MET HER ONE DAY , UNEXPECTED ... sHE HAD COME WITH MY UNCLE THE FIRST TIME TO US ... i LUVED HER AT FIRST SITE ... aNYONE WOULD HAVE FOR SURE , EXCEPT FOR THE ONE HANGING EARS SHE HAD ... lEFT OR RIGHT , I DONT REMEMBER ... i WAS IN 8TH OR 9TH ...


dAYS PASSED , WE ALL LOVED HER , LIKED HER , PLAYED WITH HER ... sHE WAGGED HER TAIL IN RETURN FOR EVERYTHING .... i WAS HAPPY AS I GOT THE BEST PARTNER IN MY LIFE .... aLTHOUGH SHE WAS BORN RICH , SHE COULD MANAGE WITH OUR ROUTINE DEALS AND MEALS ...


dAYS PASSED AGAIN , SHE GREW UP WITH HER FRIEND , ACTUALLY HER BROTHER ... tHEY FOUGHT INFACT THEY DINT , THEY PLAYED TOGETHER ... iT WAS ODD FOR US ALLTHOUGH BECAUSE THEY WERE TOUGH BETWEEN THEM ... aCTUALLY SHE WAS THE ONE AFRAID OF HIM ALWAYS , SHE WANTED TO PLAY , BUT STOOD AS FAR AS SHE CUD AND TEASED HIM ....


dAYS PASSED BY AGAIN , WE ALL GOT USED TO HER ... sHE GOT BIGGER REALLY FAST ... sHE LEARNED SO FAST ONE OF HER KIND COULD ... i USED TO PLAY WITH HER ... uSED TO RUN INFRONT , SHE CHASED ME BUT WAS NOT FAST ENOUGH ... aFTER SOME ROUNDS SHE GETS CLOSER AND I STARES ... sHE STOPS AND STEPS ASIDE ... sHE UNDERSTOOD MY LOOKS AND SIGHS ....


oNE DAY I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE NICE IF I COULD TAKE HER UPSTAIRS ... i WALKED , SHE CAME WITH ME ... i RAN UP THE STAIRS , SHE DID BUT THEN SHE KNEW SHE WAS LIFTIN UP FROM THE GROUND , SHE RETURNED BACK .... i CAME DOWN , AND RAN UP AGAIN ... sHE DID THE SAME ... i HAD NO OPTION BUT TO FORCE HER .... i TOOK HER UP , AND THAT WAS THE MOST CUTEST EXPRESSION , INFACT INNOCENT , THAT I HAD SEEN IN HER FACE .... sHE WAS LIKE " OMG ! PLZ LET ME DOWN , I JUST WANT TO LIVE ! " ...


aGAIN DAYS WENT BY , SHE GREW UP , INFACT I GREW UP TOO ... i THOUGHT OF THROWING A BALL AND MAKE HER CHASE IT .... i TRIED ... sHE DID , AND WENT STRAIGHT TO HER ROOM ... i HAD TO TAKE IT FROM HER BY FORCE ... i AGAIN TRIED ... sHE DID THE SAME .... i TRIED IT MANY TIMES , GOT TIRED ... gAVE UP .... aFTER DAYS , SHE ATLEAST HAD IT PLACE SOMEWHERE NEAR ME ... sO I TRIED THE SAME WIT A STICK , A PIECE OF WOOD .... sHE DINT TAKE IT WEN IT GETS OUT OF MOTION ... tHE STICK DINT WORK .... aND I GOT USED TO HER BALL CHASING SKILLS .... i HAD TO FIND OUT SOME OF HER OTHER SKILLS TOO ....


bY THE TIME SHE LEARNED ALL HER BASIC MALAYALAM LANGUAGE , EVEN THOUGHT SHE COULD NOT SPEAK A WORD ... sHE UNDERSTOOD WHAT WE USED TO TELL HER ... lIKE GO TO YOUR ROOM , ITS LATE ... aND LIKE EAT IT ... aND LIKE WHEN WE POINTS TO SOME PLACE SHE GOES AND LOOKS OVER THERE .... thEN AFTER SOME DAYS I STARTED GIVING HER BISCUITES ... sHE ALWAYS RESISTED FORST BUT AFTER SHE GOT ROLING , SHE PRETTY WELL ROLLS WELL ... :D ... i TRIED THROWING UP PIECES , SHE TOOK IT WITH EXPERTISED SKILLS ... wITH PERFECT TIMING AND JUMP SHE CAUGHT ALL THE PIECES ... sHE QUITE HAD A NICE TAKE IN ...


aFTER SOME MORE DAYS , IT WAS LIKE I GOT BORED , OR I GOT USED TO HER ... i ALWAYS WANTED NEW THINGS , NEW HOBBIES ... I FORGOT HER ... i STOPPED PLAYING WITH HER .... i STOPPED TELLING HER ANYTHING EXCEPT " GO AWAY " .... aND I LOST HER TRACK OF FUN THAT MADE ME EXCITED ...


yEARS PASSED BY , I WAS RETURNING FROM A VACATION ... i HEARD MY DAD SAY , SHE IS NOT WELL AT ALL ... hAS NOT BEEN EATING ANYTHING FOR LIKE TWO DAYS ... i HEARD IT OFCOURSE , BUT I DID NEVER TAKE CARE ... iT WAS LIKE ITS ALL MY DAD WHO TAKE CARE OF THESE THINGS ... i GOT HOME ... aFTER 2 MORE DAYS , THE SAME TALK WENT IN MY HOME ... sHE WAS NOT AT ALL WELL ... tHEN I CAME TO LOOK WHAT HAPPENED TO HER ... i SAW A LOOK SO FRAGILE AND POLITE .... hER EYES WERE WET ... sHE COULDNT LIFT UP ... sHE LOOKED ME LIKE SHE DID IT WHEN I TOOK HER UPSTAIRS ...tHEN LIKE I SAW A DOC IN MY HOME ... tHEN TOO I DID NOT REALISE LIKE SHE WAS HELL ILL !!!


tHEN ONE DAY .... sHE WAS LIKE HAVNT EATEN FOR ALMOST A WEEK , AND GOT SKINNY THIN , WEAK , SHE  HADNT WALKED LAST DAY AT ALL .... i THOUGHT SHE WOULD BE FINE .... i WENT UPSTAIRS ... aFTER SOME TIME THE FLOOR BELL RANG , I HEARD """"she's dead"""" .... i DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO FEEL ... i DIDNT FEEL TO CRY .... i WENT TO HER , SHE WASNT PANTING , LIKE SHE HAD BEEN DOING FOR DAYS .... i KNEW SHE WAS NO MORE ... mY DAD CAME , WE RESTED HER FOREVER , EVER .... ..... ..... iT ENDED SO FAST ...


tHE DAYS AHEAD OF ME I HAD REALISED SHE WAS LIKE MORE THAN ANYTHING EVER IMPORTANT THAT I HAVE EVER LOST IN MY LIFE .... i COULDNT EVEN THINK OF HER .... i DINT SHOW UP ANYTHING TO ANYONE , BECAUSE I KNEW I DONT DESERVE TO BE SAD , I DINT TAKE A GOOD LOOK AT HER ... bUT ALL I KNEW IS THAT SHE HAD LEFT ME .... i UNDERSTOOD I LOVED HER A LOT ... i FELT LIKE SHE WAS MORE THAN ANYTHING IN MY LIFE .... i SEARCHED FOR HER PHOTOS ... i HADNT MUCH OF A COLLECTION ... aLLTHOUGH I MANAGED SOME .... i LOOKED AT HER .... i SOBBED , LIKE HELL CRIED ...
bUT I KNEW I CAN STAY WITHOUT CRYIING ... bUT I FELT TO CRY ... i CRIED ....

mY LASHES ARE NOT STILL CLEAN ... tHEY STILL STREAMS WHEN I THINK OF HER ... rOONIE ... i CALLED SOFT , I FELT ODD ... :'( ... ... ...